Month: August 2010

Rocking out at Bombardier’s

El Paso is my birthplace but as is evident in the last 3 years, I have been a resident of Clovis, NM until earlier this year. Now that I’m back home and am at an age where I can drink to my hearts desire, I’ve been […]

Chenrezig Tibetan Buddhist Cultural Center

I refer to myself as a spiritual nomad and an eclectic when it comes to religion and faith. There are however, certain tenets that I hold to be true: that spirituality is an intrinsic thing not an extrinsic and in that same vein, I wholly […]

Mind Spill

My situation has hardly changed since the last time I have written. I am still in El Paso and I am still technically single.

My job at OptionsXpress did not last long. I was laid off 2 weeks ago. The situation was explained to me rather coldly and bluntly as this:

“We hired eight of you thinking that only one or maybe even two would make it this far. We didn’t think all eight of you would have stayed so long. As a result, we over hired for the amount of volume we are having. We had to let three of you go.”

So much for high aspirations of actually wanting to get my Series 7 certification. What upsets me most about the situation is that I put my school aside for the purpose of focusing on my Series 7, which is one mammoth of a test.

At this time, I’ve got my last severance pay from them and am expecting unemployment soon. This won’t be enough for us to live comfortably on, so David was going to move in with us in August.

I just spent a week with David in Clovis and things were certainly less than rosy. He ‘broke up’ with me a week and a half ago, simply because I went out with a female friend. The things he wrote were deeply painful and almost unforgiveable. It was no surprise that when I arrived in Clovis, I was less than thrilled to see him.

Unfortunately, I tend to be the forgiving kind. The problem is that he continued to shoot himself in the foot during my stay, so to speak.

Relationships are such complicated and heart breaking things. I find myself unwilling to go down that road again for a while, although I have to admit that I take solace in the presence of a partner. I would have to really force myself to continue my self imposed relationship exile.

I will make physical fitness my new drug. For so long I have (more…)